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[one/last/breath]

Okay, I normaly dont talk to anyone which is bad on my part but, I feel like you guys can help me. =]

Right, sooo, My parents are divorced and I live with my mom. She is very against the emo thing. Examples: 1) She thinks Burt McCracken(The Used) looks like Charles Manson(Charles Manson - Wikipedia, the free encyclopedia In case you dont know who he is) 2) She hates Nirvana because Kurt Cobain killed himself then to make her hate that more, he left a little girl 3) She thinks Frank Iero looks weird. And I have to be on this site in secret also. In other words she is very very very close minded. =/
Then my dad is very very very very very open minded. =] So I was thinking I could move in with my dad but my mom has leagal coustidy(spelling?) of me. Plus my mom would say "No" and not have a reason why I could not move in with him.
But any ways I think that had to be explained to get to my point. =]
So I used to be a cutter but I stopped for about a year and 4 months, I sliped up tonight becasue my mom was chastising my tase of music(I get it ever day) and I just freaked out and found my blades.

They say that anything is linked to a "cause and effect". I know my "effect" is cutting but I think my "cause" is my mom.
What do I do?

[black emo]

hmmm. cause and effect? does ur mom no u cut?

[one/last/breath]

Yeah, shes caught me before.
She says if she catches me again shes gonna take me to a theripist(Spelling?).

[warinsilence]

I was taken to therapy which made it worse.
they really freaked when they saw my suicide notes too.
I haven't really cut in a while.
lately i've been sticking a needle up my vein.

I kinda feel weird talking about this stuff.
But I guess you guys understand more then anyone else would.

[one/last/breath]

[quote=warinsilence;6516]I was taken to therapy which made it worse.
they really freaked when they saw my suicide notes too.
QUOTE]

I've written a few suicide notes too. o-o
My life is kinda messed up. =/

[warinsilence]

Originally Posted by one/last/breath

Okay, I normaly dont talk to anyone which is bad on my part but, I feel like you guys can help me. =]

Right, sooo, My parents are divorced and I live with my mom. She is very against the emo thing. Examples: 1) She thinks Burt McCracken(The Used) looks like Charles Manson(Charles Manson - Wikipedia, the free encyclopedia In case you dont know who he is) 2) She hates Nirvana because Kurt Cobain killed himself then to make her hate that more, he left a little girl 3) She thinks Frank Iero looks weird. And I have to be on this site in secret also. In other words she is very very very close minded. =/
Then my dad is very very very very very open minded. =] So I was thinking I could move in with my dad but my mom has leagal coustidy(spelling?) of me. Plus my mom would say "No" and not have a reason why I could not move in with him.
But any ways I think that had to be explained to get to my point. =]
So I used to be a cutter but I stopped for about a year and 4 months, I sliped up tonight becasue my mom was chastising my tase of music(I get it ever day) and I just freaked out and found my blades.

They say that anything is linked to a "cause and effect". I know my "effect" is cutting but I think my "cause" is my mom.
What do I do?

But to this I would say... have you ever taken depression pills? I kinda stopped taking mine, and it got worse. But If you take them you kind of lose that feeling of wanting too.

[warinsilence]

[quote=one/last/breath;6517]

Originally Posted by warinsilence

I was taken to therapy which made it worse.
they really freaked when they saw my suicide notes too.
QUOTE]

I've written a few suicide notes too. o-o
My life is kinda messed up. =/

I feel you there.
I sometimes wish I died when my mom tried to kill me.
Because sometimes life just isnt worth it.

[black emo]

its aight. hmmm yeh well from wut u sayin mayb u shuld talk 2 ur dad bout it. he seems like he wuld b more undestandin. does he know?

[one/last/breath]

No.
I thinkmy mom hasnt put me on those is because I would either become addicted or overdose on them perposely.

[one/last/breath]

Originally Posted by black emo

its aight. hmmm yeh well from wut u sayin mayb u shuld talk 2 ur dad bout it. he seems like he wuld b more undestandin. does he know?

I'm not sure if my dad knows I cut.
I was going to talk to him next time I see him, when ever it will be.